Ok. I've finally taken the steering wheel in my hands and started learning how to drive.
Driving is proving to be a detox. I realized I don't need even a few minutes to get lost in thoughts. Its so hard to concentrate on nothing but the road ahead. So while I learn to drive, I'll also have to practice emptying my mind and imagination. Going by this new learning of how asynchronised, irrelevant and never-ending thoughts I carry, it should help to rest my mind a bit. Huh! Never knew my mind's so restless..
Its one thing to empty my mind. Whenever the heavy-duty trucks cross me from the opposite side, I get an impulse to turn right and bang them!! No. I don't play midtown madness :P
But seriously, when you have a fear of something for a long time, its intensity starts varying... Since last month my fear of speed and traffic has reached a maxima.. As a passenger, I've closed my eyes when my car overtakes another, clutched my seat at sharp turns, even audibly gasped during one or two close cuts.. Taking driving lessons in such phase should, thus, help my confidence. If I break down my fear when its at the peak, I expect it to vanish at least for a considerable time, if not forever..
So, to summarize, driving's helping me get over my fear of traffic and speed, part one, and its helping me rest my mind, part two. AND, when I care to notice it, its also gonna help me *move* from one place in the town to another on my own! Cheers!!